Of course you can! So you wont tell anyone that I'm doing a blog post right now when I should really be finishing my take-home exam for Human Disease Processes so I can send it in to uni before 4.30pm. Sssssh!
I've recently been thinking about the way I would like my life to be. A lot of people in my life have been landing great jobs, getting engaged, moving or travelling, and it really makes me think. What do I want for my life? Where do I want to be? What do I want to achieve? What kind of person do I want to be?
As you can probably tell, I adore my course! I have dreams of moving back to Albury, many years from now and working in a practice and in hospitals, helping and motivating people to make their lives better through their diet. I dream that it will be an affordable clinic, with student and pensioner discounts (and reasonable ones), where my clients will enjoy seeing me and not at all feel judged. A clinic that would really help and empower the community and be involved.
I also dream of living in a lovely house with a great kitchen, wonderful entertaining areas and enough room to have an impressive veggie patch, ducks, chickens, a pig, a goat, a sheep and a cow, and a couple of dogs and a cat, where my future children will be able to learn about where food comes from and get to run around the farm having the sort of adventures I used to have as a kid. Their friends will love to come over to our house and so will our friends. Matt has actually inherited a heritage listed (read: incredibly old and beautiful) farm house that we plan on renovating and living in, in many years time, of course. I would also like my house to be as environmentally friendly as possible, without being too obvious about it.
It is important to me to live back in the Albury-Wodonga area, because, although I never imagined it would happen, I really think of it as home more than anywhere else I have lived. My sister lives there, my mum lives near there and, strangely, a lot of my closest friends see themselves moving back to that area when they finally settle down. I think it's got something to do with growing up in small community. As much as I love Melbourne, it just isn't home.
Matt and I have been together for nearly 3 1/2 years, but we both agree that we don't want to get married at least until I've finished my course (so, end of 2012) and worked for long enough to save up some dosh. We both view marriage as this big, scary decision that we want to be emotionally and financially ready for. And while I realise life happens and things change, and that we can't exactly plan whats going to happen, it's nice to have that idea in mind, and it's been one thing we both wholly agree with. We also don't want to be one of those couples that gets engaged for 3 years. I personally don't see the point in that. And while I don't mean to offend anyone by writing this, I believe that getting engaged is saying, we want to get married, right now. So if the wedding happens within the next year or so, I personally think that makes sense. To me, that is what an engagement is.
I also believe that I personally am not ready to be married. While I do live with Matt and we share all of those things that you share when you live with someone, I still believe that marriage is one more step up on the relationship scale, the final step of 'seriousness' for a relationship. Lol. I suppose I just view marriage as this big decision that you can't rush into. I don't think my view on marriage is cynical, I just think that some people concentrate on the parts that aren't the most important as far as marriage is concerned. I know that the way my Dad is has a lot to do with it; he has been married 3 times and told 4 separate women that they are the 'love of his life' in my lifetime. I could go on about how pathetic it is, but it's not very interesting.
Having said that, I cannot wait for Ben and Sarah, Merrin and Rob and Leonie and Rav to get married! They are the type of couples that completely complement each other, make sense and are obviously happy without trying to rub it in your face. They are just wonderful people. So congrats to all of you! I love you to bits and can't wait to watch you create memories together.
Where do you see yourselves in the future? Are your dreams as homely as mine? Or do you dream of more? I'd love to hear about it.
I also promise to get straight back to my take-home exam as soon as I post this.
Again, thank you for your patience while I go through exams. It is very much appreciated.